Monthly Archives: July 2011

Time does not heal.

It’s been just over 4 months since Freddie was born asleep.  I still can’t bear to see a pregnant woman.  I still can’t bear to look at most babies – some are more difficult to acknowledge than others.  I still … Continue reading

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Melt-down.

On Saturday I spent two and a half hours sprawled on my front, lying on the bed crying.  I could feel it coming as soon as I got in the car to go home on Friday, when we broke up … Continue reading

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Work, dreams and snags.

Well. Where to start.  The last few weeks have been really busy, and I’ve really enjoyed being back at school. A couple of people have really looked after me and I’ve appreciated it so much – if my workplace was … Continue reading

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Being tired and wearing hats.

Sometimes, even the things which seem to be ‘easy’, take so much from you that you’re left barely awake.  Perhaps it’s because I woke up at 5.40 this morning, or perhaps it’s because I’ve been doing different things recently, but … Continue reading

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Today.

Today I should be in the hospital with my bag packed full of maternity briefs and nappies and all the things that you and I would need. Today your daddy and I should have been able to welcome you into … Continue reading

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Time, flux and vegetables.

I think sometimes about the timing of everything; how quickly things can change, and how sometimes a few days can seem like months. On the day I went into hospital, it was Comic Relief.  The dog had escaped in the … Continue reading

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