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Partners

This morning when I woke up I thought it was still the weekend (probably because we’d been away for a night at a friend’s, which was great – we had a lot of fun playing on the Wii, I also … Continue reading

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Landscapes.

I feel a bit like a painting.  As in, when you put a wash on to begin a watercolour, if it’s terrible, then it doesn’t matter what else you paint on top of it; that terrible base will always be … Continue reading

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Mind and body.

So, I still weigh exactly the same, to the ounce.  I think that if I stopped going to the gym I would continue to weigh exactly the same.  Which is exasperating in a way I can’t describe; when you’re doing … Continue reading

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Nothing to give.

A man just knocked at the door to ask for money for charity. I humoured the beginning of his speech for all of 5 seconds before I told him to ‘cut the spiel’ and asked exactly what he was asking … Continue reading

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Funerals, souls and light.

I’d like to say thank you to those of you who keep reading and leaving comments, and who are supporting me and Sam from wherever you are.  Even though sometimes my posts may seem as though I cannot see light … Continue reading

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I am a mummy.

If anyone had told me that I would have all this free time on my hands when everything was ok, I’d have been stupefied with joy.  But now that I have it, I am not joyous.  I wondered whether I … Continue reading

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Loss of the imagined.

I’m feeling pretty good today, all things considered.  I saw an old friend at the weekend, whose perspective has been changed by the fact that two of his closest friends have lost babies, very close together.  I also spent 24 … Continue reading

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Haircuts and Freddie’s room.

I’ve had my hair cut today.  The last time I went was 6 months ago and I was pregnant.  I hoped upon hope that the girl would not ask me about it, and thank God, she didn’t.  I was so … Continue reading

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Work, worry and wishing.

May I take this opportunity to thank everyone for their continued support – each comment touches me deeply and it’s both comforting and sad to hear of people in the same situation. It will be 9 weeks tomorrow that Freddie … Continue reading

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To slip away.

I’m feeling pretty rough today, and my eyelids are pink and look as though they are trying to slide down off my face.  That’s what they look like when I’ve been crying a lot. When I was in hospital with … Continue reading

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